-what you see depends on what you are looking for;

Demi Pfeffer. 15 in May. I promise, I am everything you won't expect me to be. Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand. My life's constantly changing, so I don't see the point in catching you up now, but i'll do my best.To tell you the truth, I've just been avoiding everything. I don't know if things are getting better or i'm just used to the pain. I actually don't want to leave Gwinnett, unlike everyone else. not born here, but raised here.&glad I was. It has taught me so much. It's far from a perfect place, but nothing is,&if you focus on finding a problem with everything, you babygirl, will be miserable everywhere you go. My grades actually end up being really important to me when I think about it, I care about me future, despite what people think. I've been hurt,&been strong. I've been loved,&alone. Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever. At 14, I have a pretty real perspective of what the worlds like. When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget. I know God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle, I just wish he didn't trust me so much. Nothings normal here, my life. Im used to that now, it can't hurt me. I have the ones I love, the ones will hopefully there forever. like you! <3

- its getting harder, day by day…

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting. &im starting to think the fight isnt fair.

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—Amanda Seyfried - Little House